He Loves Me, He Loves Me N..no, he loves me!

Parc Omega Aug 2012

Everyone who has met my 2 yr old boy knows he is a mama's boy! Has been since he came into this world and we locked eyes. I often think if you look that term up in the dictionary you will see his picture. But nothing prepared me for what we are battling now. Separation Anxiety one might say (although that has not been formally diagnosed) that has gotten so bad that I cannot even leave a room without a full blown melt down.

Case in Point would be the devastated child upstairs right now.

Three weeks ago, his big sister started school. She leaves every day on the bus and we go back into the house to start our day. Two weeks ago he started nursery school (or his version of hell on earth). Nursery school has been a rough go, lots of tears and waving arms and flailing feet that often result in hits and kicks. He loves the idea of nursery school, just not the idea of doing it without me. Whether this has set off some fear of being abandoned by his mommy, I don't know but it has definitely caused a glitch in our loving mother-son relationship and will likely cause a glitch in my loving husband-wife relationship since daddy has to deal with him during and after said fits or it will get worse or start over.

You see, It has come down to me not being able to put him to bed. I can't even go in kiss his forehead and tell him I love him, let alone snuggle him with a song without either a)moving in permanently or b)causing a full blown melt down. I am not the primary person who puts him to bed at night as I am often nursing the baby, and this doesn't seem to be an issue for him but if i was to go in after baby is gone to bed to kiss him good night, I might as well bring my pillow or a box of Kleenex with me. Tonight I heard daddy say  that I would kiss them after the baby was gone to bed so i wanted to follow through. thinking he would be good, I did so. big sad mistake.

I love snuggling him so much (not enough to do it all day and all night) yet now I can't carry him or snuggle him without committing to it 24/7 or causing a painful meltdown. Sometimes they get so irrational, such as yesterday when he stood 5 feet from me screaming for me but wouldn't come near me, that it makes me wonder if it is something more.

anyways, that's my rant on this. Anyone want to offer some tips? and keep in mind I have two other kids, one of which is a 5 month old nursing baby.